The Dark Side of the Diet

So in my attempt to get healthy I have been trying to miniaturize portions and occasionally forgo meals, a friend insists that eating healthy will negate my necessity to forgo meals, they are right but whatevs. eating smaller portions and not having unfettered access to favorite snacks has been challenging, however I genuinely feel better. My pants are starting to fall off my flat asian ass.

These limitations often brings out a side in me that many people haver never seen before a sick, sadistic side because i get grumpy. I yell. I scream. I want to take my car and ram slowly accelerating drivers....wow it's like quitting smoking all the frack over again. This lack of eating made me very testy yesterday and I hate when I get like that.

This weight loss thing is just too perilous and I find myself asking: Are these exercises in the dark side on trials on a path to the light side. Am I walking through the Valley of the Shadow of Death? Must I use the Bene Gesserit's Litany Against Fear incantation to give me strength? Or I can just say no.

It's been rough and at I times I don't want to do another set of stairs and would rather kick back and have some wings and potato skins and a Big Gulp of Doctor Pepper but I have to do this. So if im grumpy it's only because i went without the donut or my idea to make microwaveable deep fried twinkies has failed but maybe i can start fitting into my nice suits again.